Think some thoughts and Think some thoughts

Ugh, I want to slap a hoe

or two.

I miss clarity.

Zach White

let's start a new religion, please?

Feeling Poetic.

I used to write alot.
not because I am an exceptional writer,
but sometimes paper was the only thing that would listen to me.
~perks of teenage melodrama.

I NEVER want to forget how loved i felt today.

I always thought church groups were overrated and only for kids who suck up to their parents or can't make decisions for themselves.

holy shit, has my perspective changed

Y.O.U. has seriously changed how I saw things

(and made me realize how judgmental I am. ahhh!)

Not even just y.o.u.

Dakota and Jesse have done the same thing.

It was amazing. I could feel other people's love for me. There were a hundred freaking strangers who knew my name, but yet, GENUINELY about cared me. The feeling was almost stronger than some of worst pains and heart aches I've ever felt. I forgot about affliction from my family's problems and the scars from abuse for almost the first time in my entire life. All the hurt from literally having to leave every person I have ever been close to in my life just stopped hanging above my head like a rain cloud. I don't have to let these issues define me and become a catalyst for my well being.

All the emotions I have felt since are real, I am feeling them because I can
and I feel happy because I actually am and not because I keep telling myself that to make my smiles look a little less fake.

PARANOIA

a wave of paranoia just washed over me


so I went and cleaned up a honey bunch of stuff :/

ughh.

scene attempt/ I adore you, babyboo

conclusion:
I fail at looking scene.

It's a satisfying feeling.




and dakota rocks my socks. <3

taptaptaptaptaptaptaptaptaptaptaptapp

I will never forget yesterday.

I am am overly ecstatic mess.

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I am livid right now:

1. I had to miss school because nobody would drive me downtown
this blows because . . .
a. no dakota.
b. no fancy formal friday.
c. no oil painting.
d. no couch orgies.

e. I have tests today and a conference.
f. I'm stuck in salem/hidden vally.
g. Again, no Dakota.
e. I have cabin fever.
2. My dad left to go to Memphis without me.
this really shouldn't matter but it does because . . .
a. I want to see my baby sister who I haven't seen in a year.
b. I miss all my friends I was unable to say goodbye to before I moved.
c. It's warmer.
d. The hadley's
d. It's been six months since I've been there

but on the bright side . . .
I MIGHT GET TO SEE DAKOTA TONIGHT!!!!!!!

Muggles

I was raised by the radio
in a broken home.

- 218 Razorlight


where the hell did that come from?

my ears can't stop listening!

I am the luckiest girl.

Vickey: Yo man is hottttttttttttttttttttttt.

me: Mmmmm, I agree.

Vickey: yeah . . . but I don't like him.

me: Bitch please. You don't even know him.

Vickey: . . . I'm just jeally.

people are beautiful.

. . . except for that dude over there.